An Unexpected Storm

Landlord Kevin has decided we must move out, for reasons that are unclear to me. He served a written notice on Emma tonight and asked her to give it to me... rather cowardly, in my opinion. Oh well... people have oddities, and I'm no exception to that. He's given us until December 22... nice, huh? yep, that's sarcasm. right before Christmas! I don't really know how this relates to the woman and her child who we wanted to have move into the empty room, but I know it is somehow tied to it. It's very weird, and he is exhibiting unstable behavior.

It would be easy for me to feel powerless in this moment given my situation and the suddenness of this change, and my very limited budget. I think I'm a little in shock, actually. The anger and resentment are starting to subside, along with the feelings of hurt. Just last weekend, I was helping him clean out his garage and supporting him in an emotional breakdown brought on by looking through the artifacts of his marriage and birth of his child. He's now in a raging custody battle with his ex. Just yesterday he was thanking me for all my help! I'm confused. People can be so erratic and hard to understand. I don't want to talk to him because I don't know what he will do. Yet, I feel powerful and confident despite the confusion and other feelings. Heck, I've lived on the road a lot... not a problem, if it comes down to that again! I'll pray that it does not!

Good news is Terri still wants to find a home together, and our girls want to be together. It looks like we may have found a little house nearby that a woman owns. I saw the post this morning on a listserv and sent to Terri because it sounded so right for her/us. She says it's a charming little place with good energy; she thinks I'll like it. So Em and I will go look tomorrow, and I'll keep my fingers crossed that we are out of here by the end of next week.

I suppose I made this bed by moving in here to being with, but it has served its purpose for a few months. Now it's time to move on just in time for the new year. Hopefully the next "home" will be better... and, if it's with Terri, that we are able to get along alright. We sure have had a hard time finding suitable housing in the Bay Area... very tight rental market with all the recent foreclosures. The best thing about this is that I've thoroughly sorted our belongings, and there is no excess baggage that we do not want or need. The energy around this (and us) feels very clean and clear.

Saying my prayers... and trusting in the magical workings of the Universe. It's good to feel powerful. Somehow I believe my desires and questioning manifested this into my life, whether I was ready or prepared or not!

Onward & upward!